&& its been forever...

Haven't blogged in forever... uhh... i dont even know what to say... I'm sure no one reads this anymore... but today my bestest && i were in my room... [[.btw i spent all night cleaning it.]] && we were looking at some old pictures... wow... we were some fat girls. lol... uhh... anyways... i found some funny conversations from aim... && wow i haven't been on that in a while either but anyways... i saw xanga in my convo && i was like... awww... hahaha yea.. so i'm writing this fabulous blog about me.

Its been four years. Life hasn't changed much. Well it has but its been a learning experience. I'm 20 now... woo hoo! hahaha && i don't have any kids which is pretty awesome according to my immediate family history. I'm single. yep yep that hasnt changed. LoL... my BBkF came to the conclusion that BreeC && I are sexually frustrated. I don't care. I feel that on day... hahah some day... i'll find the guy that will sweep me off of my feet. Right now i'm lovin the solid ground.

I've had my trip since my last blog though. I've been in love && broken hearted... learned to be a little bitchier... yes its possible. hahaha && uhh yea Drama is a bitch && uhh... we dont like to collide. I keep my friends countable in two hands so if you dont make the cut thats yo bad... haha i dont care to make new friends. I love the ones i have && they've truly shown me the world. we've been through it all. I dont have just one group of friends i have several single friends && they all have their own group. too many people is too much drama... well i do associate with a lot hahah its out of default though i dont intend it but i happen to be a social butterfly. =]]

uhh i really dont know what i'm talkin about hahah bigg ups to all the homies!

i love my bestest victoria k abatay! woo hoo yay for us! hehehe

then rest goes on:: my lil sister teena, dancing machine breeC, my BBkF ant, my stinky girl missa, my beezy Irie, my cousin nessa, my loser LT, my buddy billy, my nigguh fernando.. =]]

peaCe out yo.

eve

woo hoo! im so excited today is officially the first day of break that means now more skewl for two weeks! yes baby! haha yeah... and that means i dont have to do anything.. just sleep.. okae.. maybe i wish i didnt have to do anything but of course i am a mexican female so i have chores oh woo hoo! anywho... im super dee duper excited that my brother and sister in law are coming down from colorado.. damn state stole them from me.. gRrr oh well .. when your from the LBC you cant stay gone for too long hence why they are coming down on monday.. i miss them sooOO much i havent seen them since August.. yay! i hope this break is cool beans man.. i hope theres no baby mama drama up in this peice hahah well besides that.. skewl is so much funner when you dont have to do anywork and you get to talk during the whole period and the teachers dont get mad at you! haha yeah well you all have them happy holidays.. and all that good stuff you knoe i luv you!

*muah*

  * : .p.s. my birthday is in 18 days baby !. : * 

is it too late...

is it too late to just give up on life or is it too soon.. im so young and it seems lyke if im being tried everywhere i go. i just wanna be free.. "give me liberty or give me death!" lol naw jk.. but seriously im just so tired of everything right now.. i feel just ugh..  its lyke i cant even get with anyone coz im so self conscious lyke seroiusly though sometymes.. its that.. lol.. but not everyday sometymes i have good days when im just too sexii lol.... but then i ono i feel lyke a bitch i always fuck things up.. i need to learn to be not so freakin picky.. and learn to trust people.. im so tired of getting hurt.. its lyke my body is immune to it.. and it shouldnt be that wayy.i should be more confident .. haha i guess.. wutevr.. i shall find someone soon.. and when i find him ill knoe for sure.. coz he'll pursue me.. and ill be happie.. and when im truly happie i'll knoe for sure.. im not gonna picc a random guy.. i need Jesus in my lyfe and Jesus needs to be in his too.. seriously i want sumone who has the same faith as me.. we share the same standards.. and i dont want to change who i am.. damn i am too freakin picky and stubborn *sigh* my sisters tell me all the tyme.. but geeze its so hard now a day to find sumone.. and people wonder why i have never had a boifriend well here's your answer.. i guess im just not girlfriend material.. im a heartbreaker thats broken hearted.. and while most people are lost in love im lost without it .. im happie i have a family and i go to church.. or else i dont knoe wut would become of me.. i need to stop cussin too coz that aint even cute.. damn.. wutevr.. though.. theres a tyme for evrything right.. ? but i guess my tyme hasnt come.

but on a brighter note.. lol formal was fun.. haha my sister took all of us and we had a good tyme took pics and all that good stuff.. yeah..

p.s. my birthday is in 21 days!

well hello there my homies.. lol.. yeah this is me the oh so speshul.. ed eve.. yeah well i havent written in this ish for a cool minute so i was thinking.. lyke umm why not.. so here i am typing away about nothin prettie much.. so i realized my last blog was all freakin happie cheery and ish.. lol.. wut was that all about it aint even lyke that no more.. and i dont think its even been a month.. but wutevr.. lyfe must goes on right.. riiiight..? well yeah.. im going to winter formal on friday oh woo hoo.. haha im going with the homies iris.. gabby... erika... steph and rosie.. its gonna be coo.. burt omg tell me how come i have to get my roots redone.. but my momma dont wanna pay for them.. lol.. ima be walkin up in that piece all ghetto haha freakin mexican ish right there.. wutevr.. ima get a job within the next two months i hope.. *crosses fingers* lol. yeah then i aint askin for ish.. lol.. i probably will anyways but wutevr im the baby dammit.. i should be spoiled but nooooo... thats not how we do in mexican families now is it.. but wutevrs... my dress is so freakin cute for formal its lyke black with lyke gold glittery material.. lol.. that sounds funky but its so cute..  yeah.. well me and the gurlies are gonna go take pix and i knoe that the damn mall is gonna be crowded but wutevr we're gonna be lookin hot.. LOL so yeah.. then my sister is gonna take us to the LB convention center coz thats where formal is at.. and then.. i shall shake my bootie baby.. well yes.. that is the joyuss part of my lyfe.. and umm theres nothin else good to share.. but oh.. word to the wise.. guys suck ass.!  yeah.. well im out and about babe much luv *muah*

27 days til my birthday .. thats January 4th baby! ..

and im out! *poOF*

smiling a mile long..

"Breakaway"

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I just stared out my window
Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray (I would pray)

Trying hard to reach out
But when I'd try to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I pray (I would pray)
I could breakaway

[Chorus:]
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away (I will)
And breakaway

[Chorus]

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging around revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway

I'll spread my wings
And I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway

making changes in my lyfe.. it makes me feel better... all for the good .. all for the good..